so far, so good, what next

well, once again, it has been a while. we've been trying to get organized at our house. cleaning, storage, fixing, hanging, all the fun stuff. i've told myself several times that i'm not allowed to start something new until i've completed the space to do it in. i'm really bad about not completely finishing what i start, as i've recently discovered while cleaning and trying to get organized. i keep coming across all of these different projects that i started at one point but never saw to completion. not good. anti-productive, if you will. and i've decided that it is high time i put my butt in my chair and see some of them through. admittedly it won't be all of them as some of them have been rendered irrelevant by time. however, having made several good strides toward separating them into two piles, "aught to finish" and "can't remember why started," i feel like progress is being made. the room i'm working on is almost finished, as far as organization can take it, and i'm down to the junk i haven't been able to force myself to throw away up to this point. that is my goal for this week, get rid of the useless junk i don't need or use. a cleansing, if you will, of things and potentially a way of thinking.
there's too much clutter in my life, all of which is entirely my own fault. it is time to step outside of myself and take a serious look at whether i really need these things in my life. do i really need all my old movie tickets? probably not. the candles i don't use? no. the potential regret after ridding myself of some things? no. random knickknacks that were gifts? those are more difficult. on the one hand, they were gifts that could be potentially asked after. on the other, they are taking up space, collecting dust, and being a general guilt trip. it is high time that i trust God with all of the decisions i'm personally too scared to make myself. honestly, who cares if i get rid of random knickknack #12? is it really important in the grand scheme of things? certainly not. well, either way, something must be done.
i am completely aware that this all sounds more than a tad whiny. i've been going over it in my head for years. however, as i grow older, i start to realized that most of the piddly little things aren't important. i need to stop stressing myself out about what others will think of me based on what i hold on to in life. that doesn't even make sense. what does make sense is thinking about the bigger picture. this is a big world we live in and while everyone has their part to play, our part is more based on our hearts than on the things we can't seem to let go of, especially the junk. so, it is time for cleansing. let's purge the junk from our minds and hearts.

starting the new year right

first, it has been a bit. i know. holiday seasons do that.
anyway, the holiday season always offers ample opportunity to get creative. holiday creativity for me always begins at home. my christmas tree is themed differently each year. this year was gingerbread people. last year was stained glass stars. the year before that was candy canes. i like to make all the ornaments by hand. it makes it personal and fun. i usually have a friend or two that will come over and lend a hand. once we have children, we will decide as a family on the year's theme and work together on the decorations. i think it will bring us closer together and create tons of memories that will certainly be cherished.
that is what i see as the whole point of the holiday season. coming together and cherishing each other and the wonderful gift from God that the season celebrates.
back to work now. this week we played "musical offices," switching around and painting generally making sure everyone has a place to be. we moved out of the middle of the hallway and are now in the old hr room. we have so much space!! it is wonderful and quiet. i can see out the window. i love looking out and seeing all the little houses and cars going by. looking off into the distance and seeing the west texas version on mountains rising from the horizon. my plant is actually seeing sunlight for probably the first time ever. my window is such a blessing. whenever i get to the point where i just can't focus much longer, i take a minute and look out and just breathe.
i guess that is about it. good times.

fun at work

so they are having an office/cubicle/door decorating contest at work. there's a mysterious prize for the winner tomorrow. no idea what it is. the rumor is that it is a day off. wouldn't i love that. anyway, i don't actually have an office...or a cubicle...or a door of any kind, so i've decided to decorate the very small part of my desk that isn't awkwardly cluttered (corner behind my monitor). it won't be much for two reasons: a)very limited space and b)very little time. there was an email last week and judging is tomorrow.
anyway, i'm startlingly excited about my idea. first, i'm going to toot my own horn a moment. i'm a master of felt. with a decent idea, i can make almost anything out of felt. back to the idea. i've worked up a panel to hang from the back of my monitor. it has a host of angels singing Gloria (not actually singing) the small gumball machine that usually resides in the space is going to be covered in felt to look like a globe with a tiny banner that reads Peace on Earth. i'm really excited. i'll have to post a picture when it is done and up.
it probably won't win (based solely on size) but i'm having fun doing it and that is what really counts. creating for the pure joy of it. i bet this is a small taste of how God feels, excited, satisfied, proud. i like the way He puts it when he's done. "it is good." i like that a lot.

i had almost forgotten

while finishing a project yesterday, i realized i need a rather large button. i went to the store to get a button. i came home with a dozen buttons. i always forget how beautiful buttons are! they are all so small, by comparison to most things, and all so different from each other. even when designed to match, every button is different, like a snowflake or thumbprint. like people even, if you wish to draw the comparison that far.
anyway, i was also reminded how changing a button for another on exactly the same item can completely alter the result. i ended up choosing a yellow daisy button over the a large black sparkly one. the black one was very pretty. the daisy was more fun though. it made all the difference on an entirely black project.
i suppose what i'm getting at is that the best part of anything is almost always in the details. we may have something in common, but what we bring to our commonality from our separate details is what compels us to our commonality in the first place. our details give us common ground. i really hope that makes sense somewhere other than in my head.
it is good to remember anew.

starting out

the Lord created the universe from scratch, giving everything a purpose. some are made to lead, some follow. some are designed to go out, others stay put. some do amazing things, some make sure that life continues on smoothly. everything, and everyone, with a purpose.
the Lord is startlingly creative. i suppose i'm just trying to follow along, follow that creative example, and work out my purpose. i wonder where it will take me from here.